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| I am learning that I am very good at some things. There are also things that I am not as good at, and it would be good to improve those things. I am learning that the things I need to improve does not negate the things that I am excel at. I am learning humility. I am learning to move past indignation to problem solving. I cannot blame my behaviors on my age, because if I do that I give others the right to do it as well.
All good things to learn.
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| man, i really love my job sometimes.
sometimes, it really sucks. like when a coworker gets stabbed, or when a kid is grating on your nerves like no other, or when the house is crazy and even just going into work feels like going into battle.
but other times, you can laugh and love at the crazy, and be an eye in the storm.
tonight was great. i can't name exactly what was great about it, but it just was. one of the girls was being strange and talked for like 20 minutes about her butt and how it is like a potato, but that's her m.o. so i squinted a little, made a couple of underhanded comments, and let it go. i called some kids out on their ridiculousness, and you know, we're moving into a good team.
my co-staff are fucking amazing. there is not a single way to get around it. damn, i am so thankful for my co-staff. they rock all.
gosh, i love this i love this i love this.
i've been reading to the kids on monday nights to help them calm down before their bedtimes, and today i switched to reading children's books. today during "alexander and the terrible, no good, very bad day" a kid feel asleep. usually this kid has insane intense bedtime anxiety and acts out and goes on run and is just terrified of falling asleep, but tonight she feel asleep listening to a bedtime story. i love introducing childhood to 16 year olds.
as strange and odd as some of our kids are, i really like most parts of them most of the time. i'm so thankful for where i am right now. gosh. this is amazing, and i am so thankful that God has put me here.
i love that the wonder of the job is not only in the childhood introduced, but in the recognition of the weirdness that isn't going to change, and is in the ease in the relationships between the staff and the kids and when the kids start to trust and when they are acting out it is so pivotal because it is a question of "can you handle me?" the question when i kid is tantrumming, and throwing furniture, and breaking bed frames, and hurling objects nearby, but not at, your head is "can you handle me at my worst? i'm a bad kid, and can you handle me here?" i love that the judgement of a kids intention is not whether or not they throw things at you, but whether or not it hits. a lot of kids will throw some pretty insane objects at you, and when they go past you - that's the question "can you handle me?" it comes from this incredibly vulnerble child-like place that needs to know that they are safe. the question of safety is so paramount in these kids lives.
i love their odd favorite tastes developed in starvation. the odd food mixes that some kids put together at bedtime to soothe themselves. the normalicy and predictablity of eating. there will be time to eat; there will be enough to eat. that is not something you need to worry about.
man, i am so incredibly blessed to be in my job. wow. i am so blessed.
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| i've deviated from listing for a while, and i'm okay with that.
yesterday i hung out with bri for awhile and we went to dick blick's and then the humane society to pet puppies and kittens. it is absurd how badly i want a doggy-poo. there was a spaniel-lab mix there named brandi who was ridiculously cute and fun and wanted to take her home. she was also quiet, which appeals to me. going to dick blick also made me want to buy some canvases and start painting. i suppose their marketing mission has been accomplished.  but i haven't been crafty or created in a while and i miss it. i did make some pretty okay dark chocolate chip cookies yesterday though, and those were pretty good. i forgot to take them out of the oven at the right time though, so a little overdone.
i've also been thinking more about grad school and i don't know if i am going to be applying for st thomas. the main reason i wanted to was that i am realitively certain that i will get in, and i love the twin cities. i also love being close to home and all of that jazz. but when it comes down to it, i don't know if the money per credit for a PsyD is really worth it. that saddens me because i love the twin cities, and i will miss my parents and sister when i am in grad school.
i also really want to get this (http://i65.photobucket.com/albums/h217/salbidum/conch-1.jpg) peircing. we'll see when the money comes together. also add to my back tattoo.
that's about it. life is good here.
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| 242) geniune people
243) barak obama
244) good speechwriters
245) seeing friends
246) jon's honesty
247) my job
248) knowing i couldn't do an office job
249) not having to do jury duty today or tomorrow
250) having a weekend
251) cleaning
252) the tv show weeds
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